Posts tagged band

“Holiday” - because my big bro and I use to rock out to this song on the way to school when I was a freshman and he was a senior.

“Good Riddance” - reminds me of my HS graduation, which is pretty cliche but whatevs. My best friend in HS loved this song to pieces, so it grew on me. Also, my good friend’s dad passed away a little over a year ago, and this was one of his favorites. <3

“Wake Me Up When September Ends” - the music video is undeniably moving, whether you agree with it’s message or not. It’s a pretty song and one of the first songs I tried learning on guitar (because it’s so easy) :/

“American Idiot” & “Boulevard Of Broken Dreams” - Sentimental memories from Freshman year of HS.

“When I Come Around” - Too catchy for it’s own good. I like it.

That completes my list. All other Green Day songs and albums can please stay out of my ears. Yes, I’ve listened to Dookie and even Nimrod. No, I didn’t enjoy them at all. Most of their newer music makes me feel like I’m being speered by an American flag before being crucified outside the White House and having my blood painted onto George W. Bush’s front door.

However, sir Davey Havok is now starring in Green Day’s Broadway musical and I would sit through that just to experience his performance. I’m sure he could make it more enjoyable somehow.

Has informed me that in fact, Panic! At The Disco did indeed change their to something less exciting…ahem Panic At The Disco.

I guess they couldn’t live up to the exclamation point! I mean, it is a tough act to follow!

Panic! On My Dashboard

(kidding…kinda) <3

•I would have bandmates as invested in the music as me, that would willingly give me 100% honest feedback all the time…instead of the halfass self-conscious “i really like that” feedback I always get.

•We would be a TEAM working for the same goal. Many hands make light work…so promoting, booking, managing, networking would be less of a constant stress generator.

•The music would already have more of a draw/pull because each member has their own friends/family willing to support, rather than just one person’s.

•We would always have each other’s backs, especially when discouragment and self scrutiny set in.

•People would more likely pay attention to and take interest in the music. It would be louder and more full sounding, energetic, rather than being seen as just another d00d with a guitar.

But i’m not in a band. I play/write/promote/network on my own. I watch my own back. I tell myself when songs rock or suck. I stay up late by myself, trapped in my own head, trying to get out what I’m trying to say.

There are obviously pluses and minuses to being in bands and solo projects. But no matter how I weigh it…what I want most is for someone to be INVESTED. TO CARE. TO BELIEVE. TO HAVE FAITH.

I have AMAZING friends and family who help when they can or when I need it most. I am blessed and grateful for them.

But when it comes down to it, I bear my dream alone. It hurts physically and mentally. It keeps me up at night and unfocused throughout my day. It’s gravity can feel so strong and so heavy. But it’s mine to reach. And though I wish my limbs were longer…I will reach it.

(*Fin)